Wednesday, November 23, 2005

Wishing all you a happpy holiday~~

Hey people, just wishing you all the best of holidays tomorrow!! You know you will be on my list of things (people) I am thankful for. Thanks for the friendship, and the has saved me through the last year (or two)

Now no eating so much that you make yourself sick...just have a great day, with family or friends, or whatever it is you plan to do!!

Love and ((((HUGS)))) to all of you!!


Elizabeth blogged at 5:00 AM

Wednesday, November 16, 2005

Self-care and other things~~

Well yesterday was I am now sporting a fresh professional manicure....went in and had my nails done was pretty nice.

But why is it when mom's do something for themselves that the guilt sets in? I mean hubby is set to take off on Thursday for a camping/hunting trip, and he acts like no biggie, but 1) I don't get 9 worry free days each year and every year. 2)If I do end up going out it seems like this big deal, and most of the time it is only for an evening...AFTER I have taken care of all the "stuff" HHMMMM I wonder is the guilt in my own head, OR does society make us mommy's feel bad if we want to do stuff for ourselves?? I don't know, but right now I am thinking I really NEED another trip, but can we afford it....NOPE and why is that? It sounds like I am mad here, but I am not I am just throwing thoughts out here, in case anyone wants to add something. I sound pretty selfish, but well ya know I guess I just want to have a little guilt, worry free that too much?

Got the holidays coming up, and this year I have deicided to just "let them go" I will not be hosting christmas, and honestly this is fine. We will go to my mom's (wheather pending)I am going to relax and watch them work...LMAO like this NEVER happens. But really it is all good, I am tired of it being this "big deal" I don't HAVE to host it this year. But I do want next it more than likely will be Amanda's last Christmas at I got to gear up on the memories for her. :)

Back to work today after 6 days off...HMMMM I sure wish I was independantly weathy so I didn't have to work...LOL, what is it about time off that makes us or me lazy?? LOL, well all have a great day!! (((HUGS))) to each and everyone of ya!!!

Elizabeth blogged at 5:16 AM

Sunday, November 13, 2005

Opinions please~~

Hey guys I have ran into a situation that I would like some feedback so please feel free to give advice.

Ok for awhile we have been playing around with the idea of finding a new Theripist for Amanda (and someone that will look into the whole families needs) I feel the doc she has been seeing is not offering us the help we need as a family...somedays I feel as if this disorder is going to rip us apart. And I am VERY concerned about Brandon, and how he is "dealing" with this...which he isn't it is sorta like he thinks, 'Ok here she goes again, and alls we can do is listen.' I also am concerned that he is getting the message that she can do pretty much as she pleases cause we all know that she will rage if she doesn't get her way..what message does that send to him.

So anyhow we had gone into see a different Doc on Friday...and I can honestly say I didn't like him one little bit. The conversation we had was somthing like this:
'I don't know Liz, I am not discounting you present Doctor, but I wouldn't be so quick to think that she has Bi-polar. I am not saying that there isn't a problem, but well...I would think that more testing needs to be done. My practice is slowing down, and I well work mainly with adults. And well without other tests, I just wouldn't be so quick to think she is really bi-polar. And even if she is, just having her on wellbutrin is well not the best thing to do.'(I need to add here, that Lithium was mentioned and I WILL NOT put her on that at this point, I don't think it is necessary and the side effects of that would be harder for her to take than the dissorder that is one thing our present doctor understands) and 'I might be willing to have her tested more, and then let our social worker, work with you guys. My wife who is a nurse practitioner is also great...but then again I am bias. I don't want to just turn you away, but....' (he thing goes on to mention that for his wife's services insurance couldn't be billed) and he just sounded like a pompous ASS!! Like he was doing us a favor just by letting us sit in his damn office!!

Ok so that is pretty much it. I sat there thinking, how is it possible that a Doctor that helps families heal, can listen and see how my family is falling apart, and just be like, well I could help, but I don't want to. Or, I don't know he just pissed me off!!! I would think that IF you were paid to do that stuff that is what you would do. My choices are limited...cause of money, and insurance ect. So when you get a second opinion and you hate it...then what do you do? I actually liked the first opinion we fit, but according to this guy we acted to fast? WTF? No I don't doubt she has it...but now I am like ok where do we go from here?? How much longer do I sit back and watch my daughter struggle with this crap not to mention what it is doing to the rest of us??

So there you have it my delema~~Any advice would be great guys!! (((HUGS)))Thanks for listening.

Elizabeth blogged at 8:30 AM

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Now this is funny,

or at least I thought so....I have a few days off (7 to be exact) not scheldulded to work, and feeling super lazy today, so I went over to KC's blog and saw this and thought what the heck, so here it is, laugh now, cause I sure thought it was funny!!

Your Birthdate: May 8
Watch out Donald Trump! You've got a head for business and money.You'll make it rich some day, even if you haven't figured out how yet.A supreme individualist, you shouldn't get stuck in a corporate job.Instead, make your own way - so that you can be the boss.
Your strength: Your undying determination
Your weakness: You require an opulent lifestyle
Your power color: Plum
Your power symbol: Dollar sign
Your power month: August
What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Elizabeth blogged at 2:45 PM