Monday, October 31, 2005
Saturday, October 29, 2005
Hope every has a safe and happy evening this evening. I am not sure what my kids are planning to do. As IMO at 14 and 16 I think they are way to old to go trick or treating. Only party they had planned on was Amanda's ex/bf~~and well that is not going to happen as she is burning that bridge, I am glad she is, as it needs to end. But well she is kinda being a bit mean now.
Anyhow, we have been painting her room this last weekend, WHEW what a job it has been. Hubby's back is still not what it should be, so he is not helping (which is really ok cause I don't want him to hurt himself further) but DAUUUM, it is a big room, and alot of work...LOL. But her and I are getting it done. Tonight and tomorrow, we will be doing the trim, closet, and touch up stuff...and then get her bed back in there, along with her sterio, and hanging clothes.....her stuff is in my dinning room now, and man is there alot of it...hehehhehe looks pretty tacky in here. But her room is looking GREAT, a nice clean WHITE celing, and a powder blue on the walls....nice change from the greenish, blue stuff that was there.
After her room it will be on to the bathroom. I will wait till hubby's back is better before we start the kitchen (plan to do kitchen after bathroom) cause kitchen I will need help.
Anyways wish me luck today, I am kinda nervous to go into work today....but again I NEED TO STAND BEHIND THIS DECISION.....and I am gunna!!
All's good my friend, sure hope it is the same with you guys!! (((HUGS))))
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Making things simple~~~
Friday, October 21, 2005
Well, ok so another week...and not an easy one, but one that enabled me to action (finally)
First and foremost, I am getting Amanda into another doc...not that the one we are seeing is bad, but she hasn't offered any thearpy~~and it is needed!! Amanda will be seen first, then the rest of the family will go in seperately~~learn tools of how to deal with this. I am done sitting back and letting this happen to us. Also a change of meds (back to the first one that worked)
Second my job~~well after going in(tuesday) to find my shift given away, I have decided not to work in that particular class room anymore. I (again) am done, done with begging for hours, feeling inadaquate, not worthy...just plain done. (I know taken me long enough) now I just have to face the music of my decision, and not let anyone make me feel like less of a person for doing it. It is time I practice what I preach to my kids, we make decisions now it is time to stick by them.
I am also going to try and back away from my kids~~I know that sounds weird, what I mean is~~at 16 Amanda needs to make more of her own decisions. Time for me to legthen the apron strings (if you know what I mean) I need to let her decide where she is going and guide her not baby her, and make all the choices for her. And I mean ALL. I have been told by 2 different counselors that I am too close, and need to back off a bit...ok. And you know what, I have already done it. She had been deciding not to go to school, well I can't force her...so I left it up to her. She could go in and talk with her guidence counselor, and fix it~~and guess what she did!! :) All is well (of good) here my friends~~or soon to be getting better, I am making my life more simple!! And ya know what I can breath!! Finally!!
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And another funny~~~~
Friday, October 14, 2005
I have a friend that I went to high-school with, and after we graduated she moved to California...I miss her lots, but she still keeps in touch with me mostly sending me funny jokes. So whenever she sends one, I pass it to you guys here, as I know we all can use more smiles in our lives. (((HUGS))) and chuckles
A Love Story
I SHALL SEEK AND FIND YOU..
I SHALL TAKE YOU TO BED AND HAVE MY WAY WITH YOU..
I WILL MAKE YOU ACHE, SHAKE AND SWEAT UNTIL YOU MOAN AND GROAN..
I WILL MAKE YOU BEG FOR MERCY AND BEG FOR ME TO STOP.
I WILL EXHAUST YOU TO THE POINT THAT YOU WILL BE RELIEVED WHEN I'M FINISHED WITH YOU.
AND YOU WILL BE WEAK FOR DAYS.
ALL MY LOVE.
Now, get your mind out of the gutter.... And get your flu shot!!!!!!
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Well it has been almost a month~~~
since my last post. I guess, I just sorta dropped out of the blog world...why you may (or maynot) be asking. Well my friends, I had noticed a trend with me, I had become this "Glass is empty" sorta person, who just complained all the time...so I said enough. I just didn't post anymore. I don't know, I guess it just got boring for me to just post problems ect...So I decided to just post happy stuff, well as you can see in my lack of posts that not much different has gone here, so that is part of why I left. But I felt the need to say hello to all of you, check in, tell ya that I am still living....
SDDS pretty much sums up things around here. We got a few new "issues" with amanda and let me tell you I will forever hate this dissorder, and what it does to the people who have it. Not to mention those who love them.
Brandon and Joe are in a new play, so yep that means I don't see them much, the last play was WONDERFUL!! I wish them the best of luck in this one, I do have my doubts as the story isn't a very happy one, but hey who knows it could sell out. :)
Work is about the same, still on call, and no new hires this year. But I really started to look at why I stay after I was told "all you do is complain about work and don't even try to find a new job" this from the 16 year old who knows what it is like to be in the working world don't ya know (hope you caught the sarcasm there) well yes that is true, ok here is the but.....
1) I won't find a job that pays as well here (with my lack of education, and or experience) I think I do pretty well for not going to college, ect.
2) I can't just take days off, when the kids need me (wheather they really do or not they sure call enough) with a different job, it will take a long time before things ever get that comfy, if ever.
3) Even if I am not 100% happy there, I ask myself, will I be 100% anywhere, you know the kettle into the fire kinda thing??
So for now things are where they are. I can always be a vulture and hope that someone gets fired...LOL, no I hate doing that. But I have decided that no more complaints about it, unless I am willing to change it. Quite a few years back I took a course in job skills, and realized that unless I am willing to change things, I can't complain. Can I??
Well that about sums it up, I hope all is well with you guys. Keep in touch.
((((HUGS))) to all!!
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