Monday, February 28, 2005

Monday morning pondering~~

The weekend went pretty well, Brandon had a good birthday. With his friends staying over saturday night, Joe taking them to the beach (and mircle of mircles the weather coporated it was pretty nice for them) Then back here to open his presents. He did very well, 4 X-box games later and I didn't see them boys for the rest of the nigh...oohh yeah cept when they had to go pee, or needed something to eat....LOL. I picked up Cold Moutain, love that movie cept I forgot how sad it really is. We managed to find a resell place for games and movies...that was why he got so many games, I managed to walk out of there with 2 x-box games and a movie, for under $40.00 Then the next day we took in our regular nentindo game and got store credit, so he got another game, and we also got a game for our nentindo 64 and a better controller. Later I asked IF he cared that the stuff was used.....he said No. So I said you look at it like I do, you can get more....right? He said right! Good kid...I taught him well. I also scored on books for him...I managed to pick up 5 Stephen King (I know creepy but he likes them wonder IF I should be worried lol) for under 15.00 again at a used book store, I know me being cheap...but hey 3 of them were in excellent shape, the 2 other werent, but he really wanted those. Anyhow he got some neat fishing stuff from his grandparents in alaska...then his sister bought him a black light for his really does well on his "babe wall" makes their skimpy little outfits glow, now if that just doesn't please me...I don't know what does (LMAO and rolley eyed dude here) other odds and end stuff...then on the grand fanally~~Yep a hunting rifle, now I am not sure about this..but he really wanted one, so yep I guess it is a right of passage a man thing I don't know. But all in all I think he was very happy with everything. It is funny I gave him books and his dad gave him a gun. HMMMMM kind of a weird thing don't ya think.

Gosh I am nervous thinking about tomorrow, I have a meeting at 8 this morning to go over interview stuff. Don't know IF it will help or not. I just have to remember that I am already doing this job, so really no biggie....RIGHT???

Well happy thoughts going out to all of you!! HAVE A GREAT MONDAY!! ((((((HUGS))))))

Elizabeth blogged at 5:27 AM

Saturday, February 26, 2005

This could be a long one......

First and foremost...I really need to tell you guys that I am sorry my last post (and yes alot of them) are depressing....I need to think before I post. I get so blah all the dang time...and I am sure you all get rather tired of me bitching. Amanda had a "thing" or rather a rage 2 weeks ago, the girl didn't think she needed to take her meds on a regular basis. Well let me tell you THAT WON'T HAPPEN AGAIN!! I know some here are kinda against pills...but in this case she needs them. And if she doesn't have them my whole house turns into a battle field. I can or won't live my life in a battle field...and if she needs it then damn it she will take them. Cause when she doesn't she rages, and it sends me into a depression myself. So basically the last couple of weeks I have been in a "funk" I am coming out of it, slowly but coming out of it none the less.

Back to my "diet and exercize" program. I had sorta stopped again. And well I can't stop anymore. I need to do this for myself. So to answer Rhonda's and Stacy's questions, I am not on a diet persay rather than a lifestyle change. I don't say I can't have this or that. Rather I say I am choosing not to eat this stuff. I think also what happened, is I took 3 major goals in my life and began to work on them all at once....WRONG. I took on too much. So, I am going to try and make monthly goals. This month's goal: DRINK ALL MY WATER, EVERYDAY!

Hey also, great news here~~Remember the job I applied for a month ago, I got the interview....OMG I am so excited. Please cross EVERYTHING you got girls, as I am really nervous about the interview on Tuesday. But a good thing I can go in early and look over the questions. So that may help either that or make me more nervous. I have already planned on what I am going to wear. Ok see now I am thinking about it and getting all nervous again. Ok I can do this....really it has been what I have been doing for the past 5 years, 10 if you count the job before that. Right, so that is all I need to do is think about I have been doing this, i have been doing this ect...chant that till my brain accepts it. LOL

Oh and another VERY important event takes place tomorrow: My baby boy turns 14 Sunday. Baby Boy my eye. (little tears here) Little no longers applies to him. 14 WOW!!

Today his friends will come over for a sleep over, and if it doesn't pour down rain, they will go out to the beach today. Tomorrow I will fix a nice breakfast, and then he wants a seafood fest. Salmon steaks, shrip cocktail, and noodles.

Well for those of you who don't know, the births of my children were pretty amazing. I almost lost both of them. I can remember it was February 25 14 years ago, I had been home and was having funky contractions...ok this was my second child so I did what I needed to do, drank my water, laid down and got some rest...and still I was having contractions. Now I knew I wasn't in labor seeing as my due date was still two weeks away..but I thought my doc should know, so about 4 in the afternoon I call....he says ok no biggie come in and we can check ya out. Well I had previously arranged to have my sis in law drive me in (ok no laughing I couldn't reach the peddals of my car around my big belly) She said she had something more important to do. Ok now back up here, with both of my preganancies, my blood pressure had went sorta beserk. Not to the point of toxicima...but close. My diet was monitored, both times...ok so my sis in laws answer just raised my blood pressure, here I am needing to go in, and no ride. I called my mom all hysterical(which I am sure wasn't helping blood pressure much) Mom said, ok honey Joe, so I did. LMAO he got there in 10 minutes. What a maniac. A drive that normally takes a minum of 20 minutes took him only 10. So anyhow, we get back up town, to docs...and he checks me, of course I hadn't been doing much cept my blood pressure was way off the he orders 100% bed rest and says, "now I know with that child you have at home (she was 2 years and 3 months at the time) you will not get any rest, so it is off to the hospital for you till you have this baby. Good Grief, stuck in the hospital. So after I go home and get my bags, go shopping for a nighty, robe, slippers the works...have dinner and finally drag my butt in there at about 7:30. He does an ultra-sound, they had planned on an Amnio but I didn't have enough fluid for one. They decide let me see what did the doctor say: The risks of leaving this baby in out weigh taking it early. He was in not very good shape. I had been losing water, blood pressure was pretty high. Basically the doc said, in 72 hours this baby could be born comatos (sp?) So ok I say, go ahead. 2 days later, the wheel me in for my second C-section birth. OH only after the doc asked if we wanted to know the sex of the baby, we answer No, then he proceeds to say, well you will not be able to pass down your daughter's clothes..plan a shopping trip...LMAO ERRRR thanks we said NO we didn't want to know. But we sorta guessed from the ultra sound anyhow....Mr. Brandon was giving us a perfect bent over butt shot.....eeerrrr his ummm little, well you know was just hanging down. Joe was so proud!! LMAO.

so they get me all preped, and the doc is so dang quite...that we can hear EVERYTHING.....Joe kinda lost it, well then he had to leave, as passing out wouldn't have helped a thing. So I lay there and wait for my baby boy. (gosh guys I am almost crying here happy tears though) Ok so it is done, they say you have a boy...but I remember they didn't show him to me right away, I am still not sure why...I think he may have been a bit on the blue one told me. And really 14 years later alls I can say is I AM SURE GLAD HE CAME INTO MY LIFE. At 8:32 am, I was the proud Mama of a5lb 4 oz boy...and gosh when I first saw him, I remember a pride so stong, this little boy was mine, lots of black hair...and he was so alert. Awwww, guys daughter are special, but really nothing in this world beats having the love of a son. (now don't be thinking I love him more than Amanda..I don't.)

So anyhow, long story but in the process I have gotten one of the best blessing in my life. So BRANDON PAUL, have a great day to celebrate the day you came into our lives!! Love ya kiddo!!!

Elizabeth blogged at 7:03 AM

Monday, February 21, 2005

Haven't posted in a while....

I don't has been a weird couple of weeks. I have been mostly down..I don't know why, but I have. Time to pick myself up and start living again. I don't know, it seems like drudgery most of the time. I do housework only to have only to have Amanda (the human cyclone) come right behind me and leave her stuff all over. Alls I can say is her house it gunna be a wreck if'n she don't figure out how to pick up after herself. I exercize, and eat right only to have it not work as well(ok being real here or as fast as I want it) I know in my mind I didn't get this way over night...but it sure would be nice to see some difference SOOON!! You know keep me motivated. But the only place I lose quick is my fingers and my feet. Yep those places were soooo fat to begin with. My size 4 3/4 ring is just a spinning. Rolley eyed dude here!!! And we won't even go into the fact that I wear a size 5- 6 shoe...good lord. Of course the place (my tummy) where I really need it won't budge, no matter how well I do my ab routine. SIIIIGH. Ok sorry if this is turning into a bitch-fest, but some days (well most days) I tell ya. I am sooo sick of salad, cottage cheese, and yogart, I cringe. I need more varity, but am clueless to figure out what I need to be eating. Anyone got any clues or recomendations advice would be nice here.

siiiiigh I am 37 and can't believe that "this is it"

Crossing fingers here again for my daughter...she is adutioning for the part of Annelle in Steal Magnolias..honestly I disagree with some of what they are doing (more on this later) so I won't be crushed if she doesn't get the part. I don't think she will be either...but it would be nice for her to land a part all by herself (it is what she wants)

Alrighty guys have a great day, I am done bitching for now. Talk to ya all soon. Take care, and (((((HUGS))))))

Elizabeth blogged at 7:19 AM

Wednesday, February 16, 2005

I have found the key~~

What key you might ask. The key to getting more hours at work, tell them you are seriously concidering leaving, OMG...I now have more hours than I know what to do with. The 9 to 6 shift lately. And starting next week, I will be covering for one of the guys who will be on perternaty leave...2 to 3 solid weeks of work, can we do that cash register noise...will be nice, to make what I used to.

Also found another key in my life. The key to living with a bi-polar is to have her take her meds regularly...OMG, she had been screwing around and not on meds, WOW~~I lived with THAT?She is now needless to say, taking her med EVERY day. I don't care if she feels like it or not.

I have to give my son a huge kudos she fell into a rage saturday, he was the one who managed to calm her and the whole family down...Big tears here gals, my son siiiigh, I am soooo proud of him. Pssst, did ya all know his birthday is coming up? Yep he will be 14 on the 27th and I look at him, and can't believe the passage of time. Where did my little boy go?? He has grown so much (physically, and mentally) this past year, I am just amazed. He bends over to kiss his mommy (when the hell did that happen) and he is starting that phase of gangliness, all arms and legs. Hehehehe, he will grow into a very handsome man...and the lucky girl who catches him, will indeed be very happy with him. AAWWW nothing like a mother's love for her children huh?

OHHH and please cross your fingers for Amanda she is going to be trying out for July Jubliee princess, ok normally I disagree with this kinda stuff but she wants it...sooo cross our fingers. What is July Jubliee you may be asking, well it is North Bends celebration of our town's "birth" ya know what I mean? the Jubliee princess is the gals who ride in the parade, waving ect. Hey it gives her something else to think about. right?

Well that is about it...take it easy gals....((((HUGS))))

Elizabeth blogged at 5:40 AM

Monday, February 14, 2005

Valentines day~~

Well dears it is valentines day~~I am wishing you all a great loving day. I don't normally do much for this holiday (as I feel it is really a kinda of rip off holiday) the sales industry telling us to "show our love" EXCUSE ME, but really no one needs to tell me to set aside a day for doing good for my loved ones~~What a load of crap!! I did buy Joey and the kids a little something, but I don't get elobrate. And I don't expect them to either. Honestly EVERYDAY should be valentines day...don't ya think?

Anyhow for the last month or so I have been trying to find love for myself...I know that sounds weird or self serving, but I honestly am beginning to think if we don't love ourself, nothing can get accomplished. Loving ourselves means taking care of ourselves. I have been trying to stay more positive rather than negative....somedays it works somedays not. Anyhow I have sorta found a "cure" for this...instead of having the attitude of "I have to get this done" or I gotta do this tomorrow" at the end of EVERY day..I have started to write journalize things I have managed to do...for myself, my family or my house. My friend calls them wows. the last week or so I lost my wows and guess attitude hasn't been the best. So my friends, to find a quick self esteam booster...start thinking about this little "wows" in life, or the little things you did get done. So really that is my wish for all of you on this "day of love"

Treat yourself good, and find a wow, or at least one positive thing. I know it has helped me. OHHH BTW, I can :) big today...I am down 3lbs. Wooooohooooo, not that the scale is the end all beat all. But with all this work it is good to see some sort of progress.

Many (((((HUGS))))) to all of you!!!! :)

Elizabeth blogged at 5:26 AM

Thursday, February 10, 2005

This was kinda neat~~


When things in your life seem almost too much tohandle, when 24 hours in a day are not enough, remember the mayonnaise jar...andthe 2 cups of coffee...A professor stood before his philosophy class and hadsome items in front of him. When the class began, wordlessly, he picked up avery large and empty mayonnaise jar and proceeded to fill it with golfballs. He then asked the students if the jar was full. They agreed that it was.The professor then picked up a box of pebbles andpoured them into the jar. He shook the jar lightly. The pebbles rolled into theopen areas between the golf balls. He then asked the students again ifthe jar was full. They agreed it was.The professor next picked up a box of sand and pouredit into the jar. Of course, the sand filled up everything else. He askedonce more if the jar was full. The students responded with a unanimous"yes."The professor then produced two cups of coffee fromunder the table and poured the entire contents into the jar, effectivelyfilling the empty space between the sand. The students laughed."Now," said the professor, as the laughter subsided, "I want you to recognize that this jar represents your life.The golf balls are the important things-your God,family, your children, your health, your friends, and your favorite passions-- things that if everything else was lost and only they remained, yourlife would still be full.The pebbles are the other things that matter like yourjob, your house, and your car.The sand is everything else -- the small stuff.If you put the sand into the jar first," he continued,"there is no room for the pebbles or the golf balls. The same goes for life.If you spend all your time and energy on the small stuff, you will neverhave room for the things that are important to you.Pay attention to the things that are critical to yourhappiness. Play with your children. Take time to get medical checkups. Take your partner out to dinner. Play another 18. There will always be timeto clean the house and fix the disposal."Take care of the golf balls first -- the things thatreally matter. Set your priorities. The rest is just sand."One of the students raised her hand and inquired whatthe coffee represented. The professor smiled. "I'm glad youasked. It just goes to show you that no matter how full your life may seem,there's always room for a couple of cups of coffee with a friend."Please share this with someone you care about. I JUSTDID.

Elizabeth blogged at 4:36 AM

Monday, February 07, 2005

Happy monday, and weekend postings here.....

Well not much on the weekend front here, cept hubby went and watched the super bowl with a friend of ours, meanwhile said friend's wife and I went for a drive and had lunch, we drove to a little town about a half hour away from us and had a nice little lunch then we drove around looking at houses, you know the fancy ones that neither one of us could ever own, but would love to one day. I was baffled that this little hick town had so many nice houses. Hehehehehe!! But also looking at these huge places I imagine that they would be a bitch to clean..don't ya think with all those windows and square footage?

Then it was home to go over last weeks diet/exercize friend took a look at mine and said, "maybe you need to back away from the salads abit.....well no wonder I am feeling like a bunny ;) hehehehehe. No seriously this is not a DIET persay, rather than just a more healthy way of eating....taking less for portions (and then still at the end of the meal leaving one bite of food on my plate) Cutting fats, sugars, and adding water, and exercize to the plan. I CAN eat whatever my family eats, I just eat less of it. And then I am also back to "firmin" it with the FIRM. I do really like this work times it kicks my hiney, but I imagine that is what it is suppose to do. But yesterday we got in a full workout, and I can say I didn't wimp out on most of it....and I am not even sore today...wooooohooo that my friends is progress. Another good thing about this program is it doesn't hurt my back which most of them do. We also have a nice little strip of walking we use, if it is nice weather, or when we don't feel like working out indoors. I feel so much better about it this time around. My friend is going to a nutrition support group done through our hospital, and she is sharing the information with me...I will take the class in May (I hope) I couldn't this time around, and the money for the class was not there...but I am getting the basics. And I have cut my coffee consumption way down...I do still allow myself coffee, but I now drink out of regular size cups, instead of the HUGE ones and I only have 2-3 cups a day (now mind you I was drinking, 2-3 of the huge cups) so I have basacally cut that in half, and with the amount of creamer I use this is a good a GREAT thing.

I have also added water to my routine, I never used to drink water...only problem with this is: Does anyone know why the more water I drink the more thirsty I become? On average in the last week, I have gotten in anywhere from 30-60+ ounces a day-this much from someone whoes only source of water came in the form of coffee- and I swear I am dying of thirst. HHHHMMMMM, this can't be right. Any clues let me know...K.

I haven't heard from that job application I put in, yet....I am hoping beyond hope that they are still going over the applications...but if not, that is ok too. My time will come. Waiting has never been a big thing with me.

Well girls, that is about all...I hope you all have a great week!!! My thought are with each one of you as you face you weeks, take care!!! ((((HUGS)))))

Elizabeth blogged at 5:17 AM

Friday, February 04, 2005

Happy Friday everyone~~

Gosh I know I haven't been on much, I have been super busy. I am trying to organize my house can we say MAJOR PROJECT HERE!! Exercize, and beef up my career. Let no one say, I don't multi-task. No I guess I just figured I needed a major overhall in my life. Wow huh? I sure hope I am not trying to tackle to much at once. I haven't heard from that place that I dropped off an application, and it has been a week...I sure hope, they are still going over the applications. Still crossing everything you can guys? Yes, great!! My "diet and exercize" program, is more of a "healthier lifestyle" with adding more whole grains, and water" and taking away fats, sugars, and the extra stuff I don't need. Exercize is the hard one, but I am trying to fit it into my life. Not the other way around, as I was doing last time.

Since, last week my hours have picked up a bit...some of that due to the comment I posted about last week...remember how mad I was that someone "announced" I was leaving work...well I talked to the "big boss" about it, and made sure that everyone knew I wasn't mad, just that financially I couldn't afford 10 hours a week. She said, I will see what we can Poof I have more hours this week, don't know about next week. I sure hope I find something more stable, as this is driving me crazy, not knowing when I work, for how long, and at what place.

Miss Manners has had a kinda rough week, school is overwhelming her...any suggestions?? I still think they push them to hard...but what do I know..right?

Well all I hope you week has been a good one, and if not, I sure hope you remember that I am here~~feel free to drop me a line every now and then. I may not be able to solve what is going on in your life, but it sure helps to have someone listen~~((((HUGS))))) OHHH I leave you with a funny I hope you enjoy:

> >Dear Mom... > >A mother passing by her daughter's bedroom was astonished to see the bed > >was nicely made and everything was picked up. Then she saw an envelope >propped up prominently on the center of the bed. It was addressed, >"Mom." >With the worst premonition, she opened the envelope and read the letter >with trembling hands: > >Dear Mom, It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm writing you. I had >to >elope with my new boyfriend because I wanted to avoid a scene with Dad >and >you. I've been finding real passion with John and he is so nice -even >with >all his piercing, tattoos, beard, and his motorcycle clothes. But it's >not >only the passion mom, I'm pregnant and John said that we will be very >happy. He already owns a trailer in the woods and has a stack of >firewood >for the whole winter. He wants to have many more children with me and >that's now one of my dreams too. John taught me that marijuana doesn't >really hurt anyone and we'll be growing, it for us and trading it with >his >friends for all the cocaine and ecstasy we want. In the meantime, we'll >pray that science will find a cure for AIDS so John can get better; he >sure >deserves it!! Don't worry Mom, I'm >15 years old now and I know how to take care of myself. Some day I'm >sure >we'll be back to visit so you can get to know your grandchildren. > >Your daughter, Judith > >PS: Mom, none of the above is true. I'm over at the neighbor's house. I >just wanted to remind you that there are worse things in life than my >report card which is in my desk drawer. I love you! Call when it is safe >for me to come home.

Elizabeth blogged at 3:29 AM